The Dark Beauty

Unbelievable isn’t it

How we think we will never love again

Never feel again and stay numb

How we think this darkness is going to last forever

In those moments we fail , we fail to hope and see the  light

We forget that stars oh so very beautiful cannot shine without darkness

The same way , my darling you cannot shine without darkness either

Comparing you with the stars just undermines your beauty

You are the moon

You emit lightness my dear

The most beautiful thing to look at when darkness is all that is around

Yet you fail to see that

You are so busy and lost in noticing your dark side

That you forget to realize how beautiful you actually are

You notice the stars , and admire them for the light they radiate

Like they say everything and everyone has two sides

You always see the best in things around you

Yet you love the dark side

You think that’s what makes someone amazing

Yet my love , yet you can’t think so about yourself

How I wish you could see yourself through my eyes

Yes your dark side is probably the darkest I’ve seen

It fosters the most beautiful galaxies though ,

You my love emit the brightest light I’ve ever seen too

I’m aware that you can’t see how beautiful you are

Just like how butterflies can’t see how beautiful they are

You are the same

For now all I can hope is

You see how amazing you truly are

And if you can’t I’ll be by your side always to tell you that

And  even if the rest don’t love your dark side

I will , always love it and the rest of you

I know that it’s the most magnificent side I’ll ever see of anyone.

Warrior

I’m at battle

Fighting a war

Not against  any country , society or group

I’m  at war with my  very own self

Oh how I wish it was with some troop

It would hurt me less , much lesser

I’m at battle

With the voice inside my head

A voice I’m so sick of fighting against

I’ve been at this war for 5 years now with no lead ,

Yes , I’ve lost

Lost everyday day for these five years

Yet , as the sun rises each new day

I put on my armor , pick up my sword and shield

To keep that voice inside by head at bay

With the hope that I’d no longer need to

Return to that very familiar battle field

I hope , and wish to fall asleep with satisfaction and pride

I want to be able to say

You’ve won , finally  you made it here today .

I’m at battle

But none of you know

No soul is aware of this battle

Some days I want to scream about it’s existence , and let it out

Let you all know about the demons

I’m fighting against every day with doubt

I wish someone noticed

I want to know that someone out there cares and loves me

Don’t judge me for wanting  to be cared for and to be noticed

For I’ve desired love , attention and care

All my life

And haven’t gotten it in any form

All I feel is despair

For I’m not good enough

Who , tell me who would want to love a broken person like me ?

Would you ? Let me know

No right ?  Don’t hesitate

It’s okay , I know

As they say

Some things are better of not known

This too is better off just in my head

I don’t need your pity or sympathy

All I want and need is your love and care .

But before that

I want to make peace with myself

I want to love myself

I want to be able to fall asleep at night

Without thinking about that familiar battle field

And what it holds for me tomorrow

The future of this battle is uncertain and bleak

But I won’t give up

I’m a warrior .

Too good to be true

Her smile was like a 1000 watts bulb  lighting up everyone around her . She looked soo happy all the time that one would wonder how could someone be soo happy ? Has she not known pain ? Is it possible to even look soo happy ?

Everyone around her thought of her as the sun which with each passing day brings  a new ray of hope ,light , warmth and happiness for those around .

But she thought otherwise . She thought of herself as a waste of space and associated herself with darkness . She felt like she wasn’t good enough . Her past unknown to those around haunts her everyday every night . What she fears even more is will people still think of her the same if they found out all that which haunts her , the mistakes she made ? She feared loosing those around her who took so long to warm up to her .

To who was she to talk to ? Who could she tell those nightmares to ? For all those who told her they wouldn’t leave ,  left . Those would told  wouldn’t judge were the ones that judged her the most.

She knew for a fact that happy things exist ,good things happen, and  people  will be accepted in spite of who they used to be , and what they had to go through . She believed all that but not for herself. She couldn’t even dream that one day she could be herself , and feel as free as a bird without her past pulling her down . Even if that thought occurred she pushed it off her head and shut such thoughts and kept them in this so called compartment *things which are too good to be true for you * .

Update

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Love

Once in a while , in the middle of an ordinary life love can give us a fairy tale.

For a 15 year old girl , LOVE is feeling butterflies when you talk to him , the smile that comes across your face when you sneak a look at him in class , the love letters you get from him . Love for a 15 year old seems to be innocent yet so fresh . Relationships and love at this age seem to be so offbeat. They are so tender yet quite beautiful . The awkwardness of holding his hand for the first time , he walking you back home from school . Those late night talks . Having someone to tell everything too . I’m sure all you grownups and adults will always remember your so called love when you were 15 or any relationship you have been in at this age .  What makes love at this point so beautiful is its innocence . All you want is to talk to him , get his attention , make him smile , have someone be there for you , be there for someone , feel that spark. The spark I see which older generations had , the mental connection I sadly do not see that anymore . Yes I do agree we are kids , why would we kids want to be in a relationship now ? But I think at this age so called love happens to everyone . Love at this age , isn’t true , isn’t lust either its just teenage love. But sadly the innocence , the freshness this love used to have before is hardly anymore . Most of us teens today want a relationship just for the hugs and kisses . Is that a relationship or love all about ? According to me no . For me , love is that connection between two people. The two people may not be close to  perfect but when together they are nothing less than perfect . That’s the magic of love  . It makes you glow . Love is a crazy thing .
We don’t choose who we fall for do we ? It just happens . When a person loves you , I think thats a beautiful feeling . When a guy says your amazing just the way you are , accepts you , just wants to keep talking to you , when he makes you feel like the only girl in the world. It sure does feel good.  

But when you fall for someone there is something we all tend to forget , we forget the fact that the person we fall for doesn’t always end up falling for us . We all should accept that . It’s very important to do so cause i know some of my friends can’t handle the fact that a guy who she likes doesn’t like her for who she is . And just to get him to fall for her she changes herself completely just for his love . But is that worth it ? No right ?  Yes it does suck but I do not think you need to change yourself just for a guy. 
I don’t wanna change myself . I want to be independent , strong , stable , love myself. Yes maybe I may not be the girl a guy would fall for right now and I’m okay with it cause one day i shall meet a guy who loves me for what I am and I wouldn’t need to change myself at all and he would love my individuality.  
I wish that people do not relate love with getting physical cause it kills the essence of love . And all those girls who are trying to get a guy they like to like them back please do remember if he is the right guy you wouldn’t need to change yourself. I also think it’s more important to love yourself cause once you do that everyone around you will fall in love with you and is it all the important to change yourself for that one guy who may have no place in your future ? 
I hope teenage love always stays this tender , beautiful and fresh.

Say No To Bullying

Bullying! Its a very common thing today. Most of the teenagers have been bullied at some point or the other in their life. The percentage of victims to bullying is at its peak. It breaks my heart when I see teens who are of my age committing suicide due to bullying. It is a really sad thing. It has to be stopped before too many lives are lost , before talent , confidence or even a person’s individuality is lost even before the world could see his/her true potential.

I can relate to bullying and I know how torturous it can be . I’ve been bullied and it sucked. Those days were the worst days of my life. I was made fun of everyday. And to make it worse, I had no friends. I was a loner. Whenever something happened all the blame was on me even though it wasn’t my fault. No one ever listened to me . I looked like this “villan” to everyone. I hated going to school. But I didn’t want to tell my parents about it either. I cried, hated my life but somehow just kept going through all the crap. And I still remember when I was in grade 5 our English teacher asked us if anyone among us used to back talk and stuff. That moment all the girls in my class pointed their finger at me . If I wanted to I could’ve done that too but I didn’t. I just burst into tears on that spot. No one used to talk to me . Everyone just hated me , made fun of me . All they saw about me were my faults . I wanted to be heard . Inorder to do that I used to shout , scream at others . I thought at least that way I would be heard, but nope. Then rumours started spreading , hate too . No one wanted to be my friend , I did not know why . I was isolated . I hated my life , all I wanted was to be listened to , wanted to be understood before they blamed me . But I did not give up . I did not give in to the bullies or the haters . It was hard but I made sure I crawled through it.  I made sure I did not become one like them . Today things are different . People really like me now . They do not judge me by my past anymore at least  most of them . Also , I have amazing , true friends which I’m afraid my haters, bullies do not really have . A part of me is happy that I’ve been through that cause now I’m stronger . I’m a warrior . My life is amazing now .
But , those memories still haunt me . It’s impossible for me to forget them . All of that has affected my confidence and self esteem which I’m still working on.

All those who have been bullied , and are being bullied PLEASE do not give in to your haters . Do not try commit suicide. These days will be gone, better days will come . In the future you will lead a better life than your bullies and they won’t be able to do anything to you . You will be living your life the way you want to . Just don’t let the hate get to you . Be who you are be happy with that . If the bullying gets bad don’t do the mistakes I’ve done . Tell someone about it , a friend , a family member someone . They will surely help you out and it will make you feel better .

I hope that  none of you  don’t bully anyone either. Bullying can effect someone a lot , Way more than you can think. Why destroy someone’s positivity when you can help them build it ? Why spread hate when you can spread love ?

Everyone deserves to be loved . No one deserves hate . Please be strong enough to stop bullies . At times bullies need help too . They are also suffering . Do not be scared and inform someone before it’s too late , before they are uncontrollable or before someone takes away their life.

SAY NO TO BULLYING . 

Spread Love And Peace 🙂
Stay Strong 🙂

P.S If you ever need anyone to talk to you could email me (email in about me ) . 🙂